Being Unstoppable

Often we feel overwhelmed and stuck in the busyness of our lives. We’re stuck in a rut and can’t find a way out. God doesn’t want us to be stuck. He wants us to be unstoppable. We need to be unstoppable in our quest to do God’s work.

To get out of a spiritual rut, we need momentum. We need unstoppable momentum.

Acts 5:38-39

New International Version (NIV)

³⁸ Therefore, in the present case I advise you: Leave these men alone! Let them go! For if their purpose or activity is of human origin, it will fail. ³⁹ But if it is from God, you will not be able to stop these men; you will only find yourselves fighting against God.”

We are unstoppable when we do the work of God. People can hurt us and judge us but they cannot prevent God’s will. Everything we do, if God is in it, cannot be stopped if we have faith in God.

Philippians 3:13-14

New International Version (NIV)

¹³ Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, ¹⁴ I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

We cannot let our pasts withhold us from our future nor can we let our mistakes keep us from realizing God’s love and forgiveness. We have been called to serve God and we have been afforded the opportunity of an eternity filled with love and free of pain through Jesus Christ. We need to have our eyes set on the finish line. ‘’Begin with the end in mind”.

Life is a marathon, not a sprint. We need to have what is called “the tortoise and the hare mentality”. It is so easy to become overwhelmed but when we take a step back and look at what we are working towards, we once again become motivated. If you take your time with God in mind, you will reach the finish line.

What are we working towards? We are working towards multiple things. Our purposes in life have the same underlying theme but are ultimately dependent on the individual. We work towards serving God using the talents and skills He’s given us. We work toward bringing others to Him. (The only thing we can take to heaven with us when we die is another soul) We work towards becoming unstoppable disciples, eager to LIVE in the word of God.

Ephesians 3:20

New International Version (NIV)

 ²⁰ Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,

Now, THIS is what I love about God. He has the infinite ability to do whatever He wishes- yet He chooses not to force us. He doesn’t force us to believe in Him but He will always believe in us. He doesn’t force His will through you but He WORKS within you, should you ALLOW him to. Our God IS UNSTOPPABLE yet He doesn’t force us to be like Him or what He wants us to be… He gives us the CHOICE to be.

To be unstoppable we need a criteria, we need a formula. Do we not?

We need:

FOCUS- Know what you are working towards or trying to achieve.

PASSION- If we are not passionate about what we are doing for Christ as Christians then how can we expect others to be excited or passionate about the salvation through Jesus?

TIME- Perhaps the hardest thing to relinquish, is our time. We are a busy people. We always have something to do. We have school, homework, sport, cultural activities, family and friend obligations, etc. We need to give God time as well. We need to spend time with Him and ask Him questions. Ask Him what we are supposed to be doing. Ask Him why we are where are. Ask Him to work within us. We need to give Him time. We also cannot expect a quick fix to all of life’s problems. We need to be patient and to trust God’s timing.

Focus, passion and time; when all encompassed by God will give us UNSTOPPABLE MOMENTUM

(FOCUS + PASSION + TIME) x GOD = UNSTOPPABLE MOMENTUM

What gets in the way of unstoppable momentum? They’re called lions because in the Bible, the Devil is described as a lion that is ready to take down his prey.

We need to kill the lions of:

1.      Fear (This keeps us from doing the will of God. We’re afraid of losing control and trusting God- this unseen entity- with everything- and it’s paralysing to think of.)

2.      Discouragement (We can easily become discouraged by those who judge and mock us for doing God’s will. That is, however, a burden we must bare for the sake of God’s Kingdom.

3.       Doubt (We all, at some time, doubt God and His abilities. We all question what is unknown, unfamiliar or unanswered. God, however, is not simple enough to ever fully comprehend and He WON’T fit in a box designed by the small minds of mankind)

Jeremiah 29:11

New International Version (NIV)

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

God always has our best interest at heart. He is all-knowing and we need to have faith in Him and in His plans for our lives. It’s difficult but it is possible to have faith even in the hardest of times. God will come through for us. We may not understand Him or His plans, but God will NEVER fail you.

Come to God with what you have and put yourself and your life into His hands.

No Longer Pretending

There are, sometimes, those roles or days when you can no longer act. You cannot help but let yourself slip through the cracks of your public persona. There are those times when everyone sees you when you're raw and torn up... Those times when you can no longer pretend.


I think by now everybody, or at least most people, know that when someone says they're 'fine' or that they're 'just tired'... They mean their life has been turned upside down and they're burning on the inside but are too ashamed to let someone or anyone in.


Sometimes being happy becomes too much to ask of one's self. That's okay right? Because showing how you feel is still being who you are right? Just a different and less frequently shown side of you...


Insecurities reside in everyone. We all let tears fall when someone is watching... whether we know it or not. It's a factor of humanity.


Sometimes you just can't act any more. 


--J.

What's Next

So school has started and is prevailing relentlessly. This is my excuse for not having blogged recently. 


My brain is once again in an inspired state... which is always a welcomed frame of mind. This time I am even more excited because its not a photo shoot... It's something far more personal and tender.


I am hoping to do a series of exposés on various people in my life. I am beginning with my glorious friend Jaimey Jeniker. She is one of my best friends. I want the world to see her a bit more for all the beauty and talent she is. I intend to enter a realm of depth that reveals part of one's self that would otherwise remain undisturbed.


I can't wait because I want this to be big. I want epic proportions. I want the accepted conditions of beauty to be pushed to the limit, stretched and ultimately up to the individual and not a superficial society.


--J.

No Negatives

There are few people who never disappoint you. Those people who are so infinitely precious yet we easily take them for granted while we're trying to change the most hopeless cases of people.


I'm lucky enough to have one of those people in my life. She's an amazing person and friend. She is always there for me and continues to support and cherish me like I do her. If it weren't for her I would not be quite the person I am today. She brings out the best in me. 


I often feel guilty about talking to her about problems that I have with my other friends. She is a wonderful person to talk to about absolutely everything but I cannot help but want to withhold any negativity from her. I always regret telling her my problems because I hate the negativity that I have to re-visit and, more importantly, the negativity I expose her to.


So from now on I'm not going to impart my negative circumstances or issues on anyone. I will at least try not to. I can't do that to someone I love so dearly and who actually loves me in return.


Sacrifice and change will be necessary.


--J.

If Not, More.

If I knew that by instinct instead of choice, I would not be able to look at you... I would never let you win that argument.


I hate feeling like I'm about to cry every time I look at you. I don't even feel as though I'm allowed to. I hate that you think that I understand why you did what you did. I don't understand. I've been forced to accept it as a reality but that doesn't mean I know why you feel so strongly about removing me from your life.


I'm honestly and truly hurt. Especially by the fact that none of this was explained to me or even told to me face to face. I am clueless when it comes to your reasoning. What did I do to you? Clearly you have not isolated yourself from the rest of the world. It's just me. You've just blocked me. I don't know what I did to make you feel the need to build a wall against me.


The thing is... that this is driving me insane. I probably sound extremely selfish. But this is my blog, I suppose. Sigh. I love you okay? I don't know if you'll ever bother reading this. But I effing love you and even though you may no longer love me in return... I will never stop loving you. No matter what you do.


I told you once upon a time that you were my heart. You still are. I still love you to the same degree as I did then... If not, more.


--J.

Want & Need

Mind over matter. It is a very real thing. Our minds are intricate and may often be deceiving. A lot of the things we believe to be true about ourselves may only ever be true within the realms of our minds.


Apparently I need therapy. It's not because I naturally have a twisted mind but merely because I think and believe that I do, thereby causing me to act and think in a certain way in which I think I am upholding my personality even though, in all likelihood, I may be acting as far from myself as humanly possible.


Do I want to admit that I need help? Of course not. Who wants to be recognised as having a weakness? Who wants to become victim to the possibility of not being mentally sound? No one. My stubbornness prevents me from wanting to want help. Remember, of course, that wanting something and needing something are two completely different ideas entirely. However, as a very wise person once told me, the more the similar we make them, the healthier we eventually become.


I'm ashamed. I'm ashamed of the point to which I've come to where I am in need of professional therapy instead of merely seeking counsel with close friends. It's not easy realising that I may have to actually ask my parents to assist to send me to a therapist. Imagine what they may think of the daughter they have raised for the last 17 years. I can hardly imagine that they'll be proud. There are ways in which I can avoid involving them in the process (i.e. a part-time job... which I currently have to free time for). I don't know if it would be at all wise to exclude them from any aspect of my life. I have done that with a majority of my social life and the choices pertaining to that and  I cannot isolate myself from parents... especially in an area that can so widely affect me.


I don't know how to cope with the fact that I'm not right in my head. I have always been somewhat different and I often detoured from the worn path. I have never thought of myself as being someone so stuck in my own little world that I can no longer see what anyone else does. I wish that I could have prevented this whole thing... I wish also that my mental stability was not as shaky as it is now.


I'm psychotic and twisted. Only time will tell if I learn to want help as well as I need it.


--J.

I Am Heartless

If I close my eyes for a while, I see her and then I see him. They are in no way truly related to each other. Except that they both know me. They don't really cross through each others minds but they are always on mine.

She was my best friend. She doesn't love me any more. She doesn't want me any more. I thought she always would be there... Even if she wasn't there FOR ME- I thought she would just at least be there. She is the most beautifully different person I know. Although I don't always agree with her life choices, I can't help but love her wholly and fully. She's my baby. I just want to help her. She doesn't want me to help her though. I don't have a choice in the matter. I love her so I have to let her go. I have to let her grow. I have to let her find herself even if I can no longer be one of those people who she confides in and turns to. I love her and I miss her already, even though my removal from her life has been rather recent. It was the first day of school of the year today. I saw her. Our eyes met for a split second because I couldn't bare any time longer than that. I could feel my heart sitting in my throat and my mind raced as I forced myself to keep my tears back. That has become increasingly hard lately. She was my heart. She still is my heart. But now she's gone... and I am heartless. 

He is the guy I continue to fall far. He is too far from me. He's in Namibia. That feels like he's halfway around the world from me. There's nothing official about us. He's my friend. We enjoy each other's company. He makes me happy. He makes me act really giddy and shy. He makes me smile whenever I think of him. He makes me blush. When people talk about him, I can't get rid of the sheepish grin on my face. I wish he was home already. Perhaps then, I could be truly happy. Perhaps then I would be able to find my heart again.

But until then... I am heartless.

--J.